| LET YOU GO

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If there comes a time
When you have to choose
Between her and me
Don’t choose me
For if you have loved me
You wouldn’t have been with another
Wouldn’t have wavered
Wouldn’t have hesitated
To begin with
And as much as it hurts me
I’ll let you go
Wish
 you happiness
Break my own heart
Take time to heal and move forward


Let you go || © Loan N. 


When you love someone so much and give them everything, letting go it one of the hardest and most painful feeling.  However, by holding on, you only hurt yourself and make things worse.  If someone choses another over you, leave them, and wish them happiness.  Clearly, they just told you that they don’t love you.  They are saving you the pain in the future, so thank them for doing it now, rather than later.  Free yourself from the pain and move forward.  

| LOVE

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Love is undefined
But if you ask me what love is
I would simply write down your name
For you are who I love
What love should be about
How I came to understand
The meaning of forever
When love is real
Why home feels so incomplete without you
For home is where you are
Your very own existence justifies
The definition of love
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Definition || Loan N.

Loyal People

One of the worst feelings one can experience is
being betrayed by the one they love.
It is so sad to see so many loyal men and women
getting hurt by those whom they have been faithful to
just to be betrayed by them.
Loyalty is rare and hard to find;
and those who push and throw away 
the people who are loyal to them
will one day regret about their choices and decisions.
Regret letting the one person who
truly love and care for them go.


The thing about people who are loyal is that they only know how to love and see only one person.   Not caring about who else wants them, but the person they love.  And when they are betrayed, the pain they feel in there heart is excruciating.  They will blame themselves, wondering what they did wrong.  Start to think that they are less worthy.  Think that it was their fault.  When in actuality it is not them.  It is just that the other person have not yet found themselves; still confused on what they want.  Too scared to accept a love so true, so intensely that they run away.  Until they truly start to understand the true meaning of love and loyalty will they start to value it.  And then regret about hurting the one person who loves them so deeply and intensely.


– Loan N.

Worth Loving

She knew she would hurt herself
Putting his broken pieces back together
But she didn’t care
For what’s worth having never comes easily
And love doesn’t come easily
So the harder it was to love someone like him
The harder she loved him
For he was worthy of being love
With every broken pieces


Worth Loving || © Loan N.

Flatline

never wanted to let you go.
wanted to hold onto you forever.
But my heart has gone tired and wary.
It’s been played with, damaged, and broken.
My heart is dead.  There is no longer lifeline.
No longer a pulse.  Just a flatline.

Flatline || © Loan N. 


I never wanted to give up on us.
I wanted to fight the odds and make it through.
I wanted it so badly.  I wanted you, and only you.  I was loyal.
I gave you everything I had.  But I guess it wasn’t good enough.
I cared too much.  I love too deeply.
And in the end, it was the death of me.
For loving you so fiercely and intensely.

Home

Your pain, let me bear it
and make it mine.
Let me set you free.
Let me embrace you and melt away
the sufferings you have endured.
Let me be the stars to guide you to a place
with no sufferings and pain.
A place where love never ends;
a place call
home.


Home || © Loan N.


Can I be that place where your heart yearns
for 
every time you are away from it? 
Can I be your home?

Sunset

She stood in silence as she felt a gentle breeze
against her delicate face and soft features;
hair flowing with the wind.
For a moment, the world froze.
Every burden she had, lifted off her shoulders.
All her worries, disappeared.  Pain felt, vanished.
As she stared at the sunset, a smile formed across her face.
Whatever obstacle she has, she will overcome.

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Taken at Riverside | Jacksonville, FL


I don’t know what it is about the sunset, but when I see
it, I feel at ease.  It help calms my soul
and I feel as if all my problems
are so little.

– Loan N.

Favorite Sound

Favorite Sound

Favorite Sound


When I have a bad day or feeling down,
just the sound of your voice makes everything better.
I don’t ask for much.  I only ask for your time.
That is the most precious thing you can give me,
your time and your love.


Loan N.

Constant War

My mind is telling me to let you go and set myself free.
But my heart is too stubborn to listen.
For I have fallen for you too deeply to just let you go.
I want to hold onto you
And love you more each and everyday
But the more I love you, the more pain it causes me
For you won’t take this chance on us
Because you are afraid to get hurt
And every night, I am in a constant war
With my heart and mind


Constant War || © Loan N.


And I don’t know what I should do anymore.
I feel so conflicted about us.
My heart feels heavy.  

When I say


When I tell you I miss you, I mean every word.
I don’t want anything from you. I just want to let you know you mean a lot to me.
You’re one of the greatest things that’s ever happened to me.
And people come and go, but with you,
honestly want you to stay in my life,
never wanting to lose you.

And I am never the type of person to take the words “I love you” lightly.
When tell you that I love you, I mean it in every bonefiber, and flesh in my body.
It means my heart and soul burns for you.
Your life is essential. And when I say I love you,
it means I am willing to die for you.
And in my mind, I have already died for you,
countless times. Multiple times.

© Loan N.